The Wait

The start of a new year is always filled with promises of re-dedication and re-commitment. These promises are often linked to specific goals that are expected to change our lives for the better: improved fitness, healthier eating, time management, repairing relationships, etc. While committing to something fully after doing the complete opposite for 365 days straight leading up to deciding to make a change is difficult enough, the true challenge comes in the form of the wait.

Whether it’s waiting to see improvements, waiting to save enough money, or waiting to meet the right person, our recently established commitments somehow shift from being about achieving goals and implementing permanent change in our lives to reaching a date on a calendar or seeing a number on a scale decrease. Until any of those things happen, we simply wait and then use time as a measure of success. But what if the waiting has a greater meaning?

Throughout 2017, my main focus was on the concept of restoration: personal, social, relational, and spiritual. 2016, while extremely exciting for me, was also extremely draining and didn’t leave me with the holistic feeling of satisfaction that I had hoped for. So I set a ton of goals for 2017 and went on a journey to look for what I need in order to be fully restored for the first time in…well, forever. However, while I made lots of great strides and reached a ton of goals and milestones, the majority of my year was spent (you guessed it) …waiting. I spent so much time waiting for conference and article submission deadlines, product samples, new employees, etc. that I didn’t realize that I was slowly being rejuvenated and restored while also being transformed.

Now that we’ve started a new year and things are once again moving quickly and new goals and tasks are being added to my to-do list, I find myself both more patient yet less willing to overlook unaccountability and a lack of effort in others, more organized yet less rigid about incorporating fun in to everything I’m doing, and more self-aware yet less personally judgmental…all at the same time.  When I took time this past week to really think about it, I realized I had found the greatest gift in my willingness to wait: balance.

So while I’m slowly making consistent use of that gym membership I’ve had for the last 3 years and am finding myself more comfortable with accepting that some things can just be done tomorrow in order to spend more time with people and in places that matter, my time of waiting actually gave me back what I needed most: Me. And I wouldn’t have it any other way :)

What are you in need of for this year? How much are your goals/resolutions aligned with what you’ve discovered you need to truly make yourself a priority? Let’s talk about it!

Happy 2018!